A quick note!

I am not really suure if I like this new blogger program I have.
Not that it is that new, but I cant not get it to share photos.
So Its not that I have NO pictures of my kiddos to share.
I just dont know how-LOL..

So much has been going on..
And I feel like I havent stopped running since the kids all started school.
But it has been nice.
And everyone continues to do well.
I started a "little" part-time job that well lets just say has me running like a chicken with my head cut off some days,
But I love it and it makes me feel NOT so "Useless".
I guess that isnt really the word to use.
But with all the kiddos in school all say, I needed something to do.
I still have them work around the kids schedules and that is AWESOME!
Im home when they are home and gone when they are gome.
So it works.

So that is all I have to share tonight,
Have a GREAT rest of the week...

DISTRACTIONS???

So the other day I went to church with some friends. Their services are on both Sundays and Wednesdays. This service was on clearing your life of distractions and living for "God". What a moving and exciting service. It was different then anything I have EVER seen, heard at church.
They group is small, but oh so powerful. And the sermon was amazing.

But, back to the topic on hand....DISTRACTIONS!!
Everones life is full of them.
Some are big..
Some are small.
But whatever they are..... How are they affecting your life.
Are they all consuming?
Are they left on the backburner. There but not really a huge issue.

My question is how are you able or willing to turn those distractions over to Heavenly Father? Can you let them go and give them to him to deal with, or are you like me and feel that oh I got this, I can handle it.
Where quiet frankly I am at my breaking point. Why do I find it so hard to turn over these distractions to him???

I know yesterday for some reason you got 2 new post and NOW another one today.....

WHAT

 is this world coming to???

I just have had the kind of day that I guess is one I want to share with all for the BLOGGERS

out there. It wasn't like anything to miraculous happened. But it was a GOOD day.

Tayson didnt wet his pants at school!!

Tanner didnt have any meltdowns!!

Toree only made her brother cry twice!!

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Toree had an assignment this last weekend to bring home a COMPUTER doll !

This doll cries,

ALL NIGHT!

This doll is an example of what its like to have a baby!

BOY was it an eyeopener for her.

She told me more then once 

I WILL NEVER HAVE KIDS!!!

what a great assignment foe a 14 yr old girl!

When I was in school we had to take a 5 pound bag of flour to school.

THEY DONT CRY ALL NIGHT!!

:)

Paul started school!!

See, nothing out of the NORMAL.

Except that is that is out of the NORM!!

I have had so many balls in the air for so long that today just had me wondering...

WHEN!!!

when are all the balls going to fall????

When am I going to have to make another trip to PCMC for more testing?

When will the next BALL fall!!!

AND then it happend!

The phone rings and one of Tanners new Doctors want him to have a few more test done.

No not for the Autism!

This is for sleep/breathing issues!

Then he wants labs.

Thats NO big deal untill they call and say the test they were looking at was normal...

BUT!!!

They find some other abnormalities,

And then we have to get more labs done!

The Doctor calls personally and says to call him back!

FREAK OUT is an understatement!

Somehow his Red blood cell is low!

So he wants to test again in 4 months.

Cant this kid get a break!

Nope! 

And he needs glasses too.

SEE just a typical NORMAL day!

How did I ever work 40+ hours and still raise these kids???

Have a great TUESDAY!

   

 

Well I have  completed my 2 first full days as a STAY AT HOME MOM with all her children in school.

Ok so Monday wasnt too bad, and by 1130 I was calling my Mom to see what she was doing..

Honestly!

I couldnt believe it either.

Even worse I called Paul to see if I could come have lunch with him at work!

Thank goodness today was back to norm..

HA HA 

NORM???

Anyways back to the story.

I had to pick up Tanner for a hearing aid appt.

Then pick up Tayson at 1230.

Tanner was "birthday" shopping with Grma,

then off to the middle school for Toree.

And we were off to Ogden for Tanner and Nikko's party!

HUGE, 

shout out to Breann for planning it!

And a SPECIAL thanks to 

Kim's coldblooded friends.

Tanner fell in LOVE with the 40 pound SNAKE!!!

He was cute carried it EVERYWHERE!

Good-Bye Summer

How time flies when you are having fun!!!

What a silly catch fraze.

But how true it is.

I cant believe we are into the 3rd week of school already.

And guess what the kids are LOVING it!!!

All 3 of them have been to school on time and stayed the full day!

This is a GREAT thing especially for Tanner.

Tayson is cruising right along with Kindergarten.

Toree is LOVING being the top dog at Middle School.

Paul starts classes back up tomorrow.

And I am at home,

trying to find my niche in the routine of home life.

It has been a little strange and well even overwhelming at times.

It was easier being home with the kids here.

I now find myself leaving in their cartoon from morning throughout the day.

Just so I have noise.

I am learning I can make the drive to Salt Lake and back before the bus get home.

I am learning that when the phone rings and the school number shows up it IS NOT always to have me come pick up Tanner.

I am learning that it is ok to go have lunch with my friends and NOT feel guilty about not taking the kids.

So se everyone at the Spatig House is learning!

Closure.... Now what next?

Now I have the diagnosis
 and over the last few days I have been VERY emotionally.
I think now everything that I have been trying to put blinders over because I was told it was this or that for the last few years from Doctors and Specialist has finally hit home.
 It was so hard that  I started doubting myself.
Thinking I was making things out to be worse then what it really was.
That I was self diagnosising my son.
That I was making him a "special-needs" kid when really he wasnt.
All of these stresses and worries were answered and confirmed last Friday.
And to be honest with you all I dont really think I am handling it well.
I would never say that outloud and that is why the world of BLOG is so amazing.
I have had to be strong for so long.
I have fought so many battles.
I have finally gotten the answers to my BIGGEST fears.

*My son is AUTISTIC,

*My son is DEPRESSED,

*My son is over-STIMULATED,

*My son has ANXIETY Issues,

*My son has Sensory Issues ( i dont even know what that means),

*My son has Seizure Disorder,

*My son has Mental Retardation,.....................

*My son is COMPLICATED!

MY son is the LOVE of my life!

My son is a brother.

My son is FIGHTER!

My son is CARING, LOVING, and POLITE...

My son IS a child with AUTISM.

I knew for 12 years since the day he was born..

And that is ok.

There is NOTHING

I would EVER change.

But I still want to be sad and try to fix everything and make it easier for him.

Now I hope that the label of "AUTISM" is not placed on his every move.

I want him to be happy

I want him to be independent.

I want him to understand things that we all take for granted.

I want him to be able to have a WONDERFUL-

loved filled life.

It like knowing "offically" now what I have known in my heart forever.

But it still hurts.

Not knowing as his mother what to do.

How to explain it to him and his Sister and Brother,

AWESOME day!! Lots of answers!!

Dr. B will NEVER fully comphrend how much I LOVE her.

Finally today after 4 LOOOONNNNGGGG years of tests, specialist, screenings and errors.

We have a Full Diagnosis.

AUTISM!!!

I know a real SHOCKER.

Why the happy-relieved tone in my typing.

Because NOW it is OFFICAL.

that means the schools HAVE to get him the services he needs.

And get this Dr. B wants to come in on an IEP and eval Tanner at school.

Awesome Day........

I think YES.

More to come later,

Just wanted to update. 

The BIG day is finally here!!!!

And as excited as I am there is a HUGE part of me that does NOT want tomorrow to come.

We have been WAITING for so long it seems to actually get a Diagnosis for Tanner that I am SCARED!!

He has gone to so many different Doctors and Specialist that all come to ONE conclusion that is he is a COMPLICATED CASE!

Like  I was NOT fully aware of the fact he is COMPLICATED!!!

But I do have a feeling that THIS appointment will answer questions that both Paul and I have had.

HOPEFULLY!

Hopefully there will be NO more testing for a while.

And we will be able to NOW find out who can help him

and what other services will work BEST for him.:)

I have always known from the MINUTE I saw his cute little face there was something about him that would ROCK my world.

And now I have found someone that I hope will be able to help us and give us answers!!!

SO, if tomorrow there is a  post of

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

You will all know that she said he was COMPLICATED and changed NOTHING!!

So here is too a Diagnosis that will make sense.

GOOD NIGHT!



Genetic Evaluation=GREAT confusion ans NOT many answers

As some of you may know in Feb. Tanner finally had a Genetic Panel Test done at PCMC.

Well on Wednesday of last week we were finally able to get into the Specialist to have them tell us what they found.

DRUM-ROLL.....

Apparently even his Genetic results show he continues with the

 "He is COMPLICATED!!!"

 shocking I know!

His 12th chromosome on the LONG P arm is missing a piece.

What exactly does that mean???

I have no clue!!!!!

They want us to do some more testing with Paul and I.

And that test only cost $5,000.00 for each of us.

CRAZY, I know.

They say that with this chromosome abnormality his diagnoises dont really make sense.

That with this 12th chromosome breakage BEHAVIORS that they see in Tanner is NOT common.

So, to sum it up I am still as confused about GENETICS as I was when they first called.

Hopefully when they send the report I will be able to read it an research it more...

HELLO GOOGLE!!-lol.

On a side note the house is coming along GREAT!

All the painting is done.

So we wait for it to dry so we can get pictures hung!

And vinyl on the walls.

I CAN'T WAIT!



We are moving!! AGAIN!!!

I know AGAIN!!!!!

For those of you that know me well you know how often we move!
And yes it has been 2 years.
So, it is time....AGAIN!!
This time though is a BIG move.
We are actually BUYING!
It is a small 3 bedroom house.
With a HUGE yard.
I NEVER moved as a child.
Where as my husband moved alot.
So, I use his moving us around as a time to DE-CLUTTER!!
And oh boy have I with this move.
We have LOTS of work ahead of us.
Painting, Yardwork, Decorating.
If I would have been thinking I would have posted BEFORE pictures.
Maybe I will get some tomorrow.
Now that we have the biggest part of the pick up done.
Now the fun begins.
Toree wants a HOT PINK room.
Tanner and Tayson are having a RED DEVIL/ Cars room.
I get to paint my kitchen ANY color I want and to tell you the truth I CAN'T WAIT!!!

Here's to our next final move!!!!

Helicopter Mom-- yeap thats me.

This is always the HARDEST part of the year with Tanner.

This will be his 5th school in 6 years.

Mostly because they have decided it wasnt the right school for Tanner...

His behaviors are increasing, and he is getting bigger

SO

I will be the Mom.

The Mom of a child with AUTISM.

That most people try to understand,

but when they see it happen they dont know what to do.

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Over the last little while I have come to realize that I am a.........

Helicopter Mom!!

I am sure this is coming to you all as a HUGE SHOCK--LOL

But yes I have decided I need to lay low for awhile.

Let Tanner do his thing.

Let the meltdowns come.

Let the phone calls begin.

Let the sleepless nights come to an end.

Let the teachers take care of business.

Let everyone see his "true" colors.

I have been taking the boys to Summer School for the last 3 weeks...

Tanner is suppose tostart his day at 8 am (LOL).

Well that didnt workout so well,

He goes to school at 11 with Tayson.

And I am suppose to pick them up at 1:30.

Well I usually get tanner out of the car and to class by 1145.

Tayson is already to go and practically JUMPS out of the car when we get there.

Then I get to classroom and he runs out the door.

I try to leave with him in the good hands of his teacher,

And he runs.

We take him to recess and he runs.

Tanner has RAN away from school before and I am scared he will again.

So I hauver.

I make sure he is safe.

I make sure his classmates are Safe.

And then I go home for 45 minutes before I have to go get him and Tayson.

Its a crazy life being a HELICOPTER MOM!!

but at least I am letting him SOAR!!!



2 years...Since Tanner said good-bye to his BEST FRIEND.

I woke this morning and was getting the boys ready for Summer School.

Tanner was fighting it as per-normal.

Tayson was ready to go.

Tanner didnt sleep at all last night also per-normal lately.

When he finally did wake up all he did was cry...

He cried at school.

He cried when I picked him up.

He cried on the way to grandma's house.

He cried just sitting on the couch.

When I aksed him why he was so sad today he looked at me,

 smiled,

 and said you woke me up.!!!

I apologized and said well Bud you had to get up.

He said he was dreaming of riding horses with Grandma Ila and Preslee.

I cried with him.

Preslee was his "girlfriend"

He loved his Preslee.

He has talked about her often over the last 2 years since her accident.

He prays for her EVERY day.

He asked about her all the time.

Her Parents Pat and Ashley were always so wonderful with Tanner,

I miss them!

He misses them..

They are AMAZING people.

Go to their blog page at

http://patrickandashley.blogspot.com

and read their AMAZING story

 you will see WHY

Tanner LOVES them so much.

That is when it hit me!

Poor Tanner's little heart is breaking all over again for his Pres.

I cant ev en imagine what it is like for Ashley and Pat.

But I can tell you.

Preslee, Grandma Ila and Tanner have

been riding horse together in his dreams.

They went for a walk in the park.

They had sno-cones with the JUICE!

Sorry Ashley, Tanner let her have Juice.

And well it just goes to prove have thin that veil is between Tanner and Heaven,...



Its ok to cry!!!

It is funny how when you are feeling a certain way and then all of the sudden you turn to your trustly Blog-Land friends and they are all feeling or experiencing the same thing..

You know those days when you cry because the sun is out!

You cry because its cloudy!

You cry because your kids wont help... WITH ANYTHING!

You cry because your house is a MESS!

I cry because it is all just to much!

I cry not knowing what the future holds for Tanner!

I cry because I have 14 yr old daughter that has way too much to handle for a 14yr old girl!

I cry because I am SAD!!

I cry because I dont sleep worrying if Tayson will seize again.

OK, apparently I am a BOOB!!

I have those times when I cry I cry so hard it hurts the next day kinda cry!

Those from the tips of your toes all the way through you body kinda cries!

They dont happen often and it takes alot for me to admit I cry,

BUT,

Its nice to see I am not  the only one that has those kinda days!!

Thank you to all of you in BLOG-LAND for sharing your stories.

For letting me realize it is OK to cry,

It is ok to breakdown some days and just let those tears fall!!

Well I am one proud Mama!!!

Tanner returned home from camp yesterday and at Camp they always give out some kind of award.

Well this year Tanner won for..............

"Most Polite Camper"

Thats right out of all 50 campers

He was the most POLITE!!!

Kinda made my day.

After picking him up it was off to Bear Lake for some FUN in the sun.

Boy, it was a BEAUTIFUL day there.

NO SUNBURN!

Which with Tayson in tow that is always an accomplishment!!

Thank you to Marci for "smoothering" him in block before we got there.

Pictures will follow!

But we sure had a GREAT time

And Paul even got to go with us!



This will be short, sweet and to the point!

EVERYTHING around our state is on fire!

Tanner is heading to camp today!

Tayson LOVES summer school- Tanner doesnt

Toree is 14 and well she is JUST 14~~



Wednesdays at my HOUSE!!!

So today I am sitting at the computer the kids are running a muck and the house is in desperate need of cleaning.

Yet, here I sit at the Computer.

Waiting to figure out what all I want to post today!!

The last few weeks  ok MONTHS have been really hard ones.

I am FRUSTRATED...

I am TIRED.

I want what is BEST for all of my children!!

I do it the BEST I can.

I am only ONE person!!!

I am LONELY!

I am MAD...

I need someone that HAS my back.

I need someone that GETS it.

I need more support, other than that of ...

YOU NEED PARENTING CLASSES.

or

IF YOU DONT LET HIM ACT LIKE THAT HE WILL STOP!!!

I have had to take Tanner down to 3 new different Doctors all of which said he was out of the scope. They told me he was a DIFFICULT case (really?? DUH). 

 I was not even aware that he was difficult, that was such a shocker--LOL.

And then I found one..

I found a Doctor that IS amazing with him!

She has done testing and seen behaviors, she talks to us and NOT above us.

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I have noticed Tanner  regressing and I wonder if we are at his FULL potential??

Is this where his full functioning will stay.

Will he read at a Pre-school level forever??

Will he have the math skills of a 1st grader??

Will he have the social skills of a toddler???

A GREAT friend of mine told me the other day when I geet him in this NEW school I will see such progress that they have done amazing things for "behavioral" kids at this school.

But seriously, Tanner should be going into the 7th grade. (And he will be starting the 5th grade this year). He will be 12 in August and I think my Tayson who is starting Kindergarden will by pass him shortly.

The school here has been better then our previous ones.

But I think they give him the  BARE essentials to get him "BY".

I think that their hearts are in the right places.

BUT, Tanner is HARD.

( he takes alot more then HEART most days)

And when he has had too much I think that is where they leave him.

I wonder how often he is left alone when he is suppose to have an aide that helps him.

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With Toree I have noticed that she is NOT a little girl anymore.

She is growing into a BEAUTIFUL young lady.

She should not have to be my "SUPPORT"

She should get to be a teenage girl that has her friends over to hang out.

But she doesnt,

She is afraid that Tanner will have a meltdown,

She I think is scared..

Scared of what they might think when they find out she has a brother that is AUTISTIC.

She is doing GREAT in school,

She is SO shy though.

I wish she would go and be 14.

I know in a few years I regret that one-LOL.

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Tayson oh my sweet Buddy!

How I have LOVED being home with you!

But oh how I would LOVE to go to any room in the house without you freaking out!!LOL

Soon you will be in school and I will miss you terribly I am sure.

You are sassy

You are set in your own little 5yr old way..

You have a temper that would make a grown man CRY!

Heaven help us!

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So there you have it.

The reason the house needs cleaned

and WHY my children are

RUNNING a muck!!

Have a great Wednesday!!!



I am HURT,

I am PISSED.

I dont even want to talk about it.

SO I will Blog about it!!!

As you all know, ok maybe not all of you, but every year!!!

YES EVERY year my Mothers family does this camp out.

It is mostly always been the first weekend in August and is Lots of FUN!!

But this year they had it last weekend.

So actually 2 months early.

I had already paid for it.

I had HONESTLY planned on attending!

But then decided not to go!!!

Oh heavens above NOT go!!

yes NOT go!!!

Apparently I was NOT the only one from my Family to make that decision!

Out of the 5 girls only my youngest sister went!!

I know my Mom felt bad!!

Yes she has told me and the rest of my Sisters ( I think)

But, I was over it!!

I have enough going on in my OWN Family of 5.

I did NOT want to go!

I am sorry that feelings were hurt!

I am sorry you were MAD!

But really I did it alone LAST year too.

 I didnt have it in me this year again.

( I have noticed Paul's work schedule the last 2 -3 years has him schedueled that same weekend-LOL)

Toree had the FLU!!

Tanner is having more and more MELTDOWNS!!

Tayson is just been a TURD latley!!

I have decided to start choosing my own BATTLES !

This is one I was NOT willing to fight!

Boy is that comin' back to bite me!!

I LOVE my Family!!!

 I just didnt want to go Camping!!

Is that too much to ask?????



HELP!!! How do I handle BULLIES in my own Family?

It saddens me to watch how my OWN Family reacts

to people in a PUBLIC setting!!!

And the sad part it is it the ADULTS!!

NOT the children.

When I know they are trying to be funny what they say is

 oh so hurtful.

And the saddest part of this story is that their nasty mean comments were posted on Facebook.

For all the world to see and read.

I know that I should comment and I have.

But it is hurtful to me!

It is hurtful because the person they are
BULLYING

is also a person with AUTISM!!

A teenage boy.

That was dressed NOT as fashionably

as my own sister and neice thought he should BE...

HONESTLY..

they are CLUELESS!!!!

 I think how hurtful their remarks were to me.

I did make a comment at the time of the first comments

 and thought that was the end.

But,

 no today as I was looking at some pictures that were posted,

there is was.

RIGHT ON FACEBOOK!!

With comments!!

Not only from them,

but other FB friends or theirs..

*what is the appropriate way to approach this???

*has anyone out there had this happen?

*I dont want my "dirty" laundry all over FB...

BUT,

 I do want them to know this is NOT COOL!!

What would their reaction have been had it been their own child??

Because he is someone's child..

He could have EASILY been Tanner??



We have BARELY survived and it is ONLY the 1st week of Summer!!!

 

I can NOT believe we are only one week into summer Vacation and Toree is BORED.....

Not just kinda bored...

I am talking driving everyone CRAZY BORED!!!!

Now the boys are in HOG heaven!

They have baseball and T-ball all week long.

Both boys have games on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

And cousins and Aunts and Uncles play all the rest of the week.

So needless to say

IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR ME ,

I WILL BE AT THE BALLPARK!!!

We are all done with Doctors appointments until JULY!!!
I know I can hardly believe I am typing that sentence.
It seems like that is all I have done for the last 6 weeks,
Well that is probually because honestly that is all I have done for the last 6 weeks!!
I cant believe how fast that adds up in fuel MONEY!!
You figure about $85-$90 a trip just for GAS!!! (craziness)
So it will be nice to SAVE that money so when we do go to Utah,
we can just PLAY!!!

Although I am thankful that I am able to take Tanner to such an AMAZING Doctor!
I am hoping when the test results come back we will be able to get the information we need to get the BEST services for Tanner.
The results will not be ready for us UNTIL AUGUST!!!
I know, that is a while off,
BUT
When you take your child to a Doctor like
Dr. B waiting is part of having the BEST!!!
Dont worry I will let you know as I dowhat we find out!!!

Summer starts.........................................NOW!!

SUMMER is HERE!!!!!!

On a side note...

Tanner, Tayson and I all got sunburnt yesterday @ Field Day!!

It offically started TODAY!!

I can't wait,...

BOY how I am already missing my Rigby friends!

I miss Ashley's Sno-Shack!

I miss Rexburgs Spray Park!

I miss Rigby Lake!

I miss the Idaho Falls Zoo.

(yeap only the 1st day of Summer)

But this summer

I will NOT miss...

The boys baseball games!

Trips to Tracy Avery!

Picnics at the Park!

Playing outside!

Doing Nothing,

 hangin with the kids!

Being a S.A.H.M. is something I have NEVER done for a whole Summer!

And I cant wait!

I am sure you will see lots of posts

GOOD, BAD, and UGLY!!!

But hey that is what Blogland is ALL ABOUT!!!



11 years. 27 days, and 17 hours!!!

As I look back over the last 3 years I wonder at times how we all survived!!!!

I havent lost a child.

I havent lost a husband.

But the last 3 years have been filled a a type of grief and loss that I am not sure many people understand...

Well maybe!!!

1 in 88 parents will understand the loss  GRIEF I am speaking of!!

*The kind that you feel every time you leave a Dr. appointment with a child that is "COMPLEX" to use their exact medical term.

*The kind you feel when the phone ring for the 2oth time this week and it is the school calling for you to come pick up your child.

*The kind where your daughters friends wont come over to play anymore because your son scared them.

*The kind where you know the diagnosis that Doctor gave you was just to get you out of their hair and NOBODY else will listen to you.

*The kind where when you are at any public place you are carefully and mindfully finding all exit signs for a quick get away if it is too much.

*The kind where you are still taking your 11 year old son to the Women's bathroom, because not everywhere has FAMILY bathrooms.

*The kind where when you find a Doctor that says " your son doesnt have PDD/NOS.... He is on the SEVERE end of the Autistic Spectrum." Gives you some sense of relief and makes you feel a little LESS crazy then you already KNOW you are.

You still feel the grief though...

For what life would have been like to not have AUTISM in you life..

But then you realize that ...

AUTISM has been there for 11 years 27 days and 17 hours..

It is always what you have known and loved! Since the day he was born!

It is crazy how many emotions I have felt over the last few days.

But I have always known!

It only took 3 years for the Doctors to figure out what I have known and tried to share with them for

11 years 27 days and 17 hours.

That is how long I have known and LOVED  my son....



              So someday I want to BE

    "SUPER-MOM"...

The one that have it all together!

The one who have all the patients in the world.

The one that husband is ALWAYS 100% involvement.

I want it all...

Patiences

The PERFECT children!

The CLEAN house!

The CRAFT corner full of FINISHED projects!

The YARD every kid wants to hangout in!

The NEWEST mini-van!

The Martha Stewart FANCY meals every night!

The BODY of a Supermodel (or at least NOT a wibble-wabble toy)!

PLEASE and THANK YOU saying good mannered children!

The house big enough to entertain!

I WANT IT ALL!!!!

And then I realize I have it all..

It is just in a package that is PERFECT for me!!

We may not have it all,

But together we are ALL we need!!

New Doctor!!!!!

So, yes we have yet again found another that is looking into Tanner's "NOVEL"... Ok, maybe it isnt really a novel, but there sure is ALOT of information there from his other Doctors and Specialist.

She was really GREAT with him. I love it when the Doctors talk to Tanner and NOT over him. She had lots of questions for Paul and I (yes people that is right, Paul went with me). I think he was a LOT overwhelmed. But we both left pleased with the visit. We go back next Wednesday for the "parents-appointment". And then the next 2 t0 3 weeks for Tanner to continue his testing. It is a Long process but I feel confident in what she has already talked to us about. Some of the "treatment" ( I guess that is what we will call it) plan for his behaviors made me feel at ease. She is recommending a "service dog" for Tanner. She says they have proven very beneficial for these kiddos. Well see!!! Of course when she said DOG Tanner was ALL EARS!!
I have read many books and articles that prove animal companions are great for Autistic Children. It helps with behaviors, sensory, commuication, etc.... We'll see. That was all I commented on that!

Dr. B also said that she was confused as to how the previous Dr came to the conclusion that Tanner had Pdd/NOS. Which is on the Autism Spectrum. But is not typically the same as AUTISTIC! They are but they arent. See if you have a child with PDD/NOS they dont always recieve the same services as a child with AUTISM diagnosis. That has proven very true for Tanner especially in school. So with this clarification and Diagnosis we may and SHOULD get more services for him. more therapies, a possible one on one aide those kind of things. Which for Tanner will be AWESOME!!

Dr. B asked what my main concern for Tanner is......
That was one that I have been thinking aabout alot lately.
But, after much thought it was..
IS THIS TANNER'S HIGHEST FUNCTIONING SKILL... Right now is this where he will stay for the rest of his life????
She agreed that was a legit answer and that is what we will be looking into, but that has me thinking. Is this where he will stay for his independece for the rest of his life?

The other day Tayson says to me " mommy when I grow up I am going to marry you."
My response was " tay when you grow up Mommy wont be so cool"
Then Tanner says.. "mommy when I grow up I am going to live with you FOREVER!'
My response was " I know Buddy"

And ever since that convrsatiion with the boys I hve laughed about Tanner and Tayson's comments. But a part of me is sad that for Tanner living at home my be what it is for him!!

Part One of my CRAZY. FUN, EXHAUSTING week!!!

What a CRAZY week!!!!

OH where to begin with this last week..

It has been BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!

It has been FUN FUN FUN!!!!

And it has been CRAZY!!!

It all started last Monday.

Tanner and I embarked on a school field trip to Provo.

The ride was LONG!!

The First museum was AWESOME!!!

But one would have been plenty for Tan and I...

But oh NO, we had 2 more and lots of WALKING!!!

so needless to say Tanner was ready to head home when we got to load the bus.

We got to ride the bus home with Flint and AJ so all was good!!!

After we got home and recovered from that ADVENTURE it was time to head to

 Laramie for SUMMER GAMES!!!

That is another 5 hour bus ride!

We had a ball and Tanner is kinda a BIG Deal now...

HE GOT GOLD!!!!

way to go Tanner..

This is a quick fast post...

Pictures and more is coming soon!

But it is 1130PM and I am going to sleep!!! 

Girls ONLY day!!!

WITH THE EXCEPTION OF GRANDPA!!

hey somebody had to drive

Today was suppose to be all about finishing up the laundry and getting packed- Ha.

Toree and I went to Utah with my parents and we had a BLAST!!

this is what we did..

we ate,

we shopped,

we shopped at another store,

we shopped at another store,

we had ice cream,

we visited Abby-Lou,

we ate AGAIN!!

we didnt get home until 11;45 PM.

and I left the house at 12 NOON.

What an amazing day!!

What a FUN girl Toree is!!

Just on a side note though..

You take her anywhere to shop,

BUT if you take her to Barnes and Noble she WANTS everything.

After all she is her GRANDPA's FAVORITE!!!

SHHHHH... dont tell the others!!

Toree and I dont get to go ALONE very often and do things.

That is what it is!

It sucks,

BUT when we do go out we have a BALL!!



The life that's chosen ME!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=zxkcUhW6Kzw
Hopefully this will open.. If not go to youtube under
Karen Taylor Good
The life that's chosen me....
Ok I couldnt get that one to work!!! SORRY
Try this linkwww.HarmonizingwithHumanity.com
This is where you can order the CD.
But it still has the song on it!
GOOD LUCK!!
(if this one doesnt work just go to my facebbok page.. Its on there too)
This song is AMAZING!!
I found it off one of my Autism Facebook Friends and had to share it.
I think it explains so much of what a parent with a child with disabilities feels and thinks at times.
To look at the Parents faces in the video,
It is like looking in the mirror for me somedays...... EVERYDAY!!

ENJOY!!!

I am so thankful to be needed!!!

As the end of April was approaching yesterday I decided to take that page of my calendar off and get ready for May!!

Then I quickly decided I wanted April back!

May is filled with..

Summer Games in Laramie.

End of School year field trips.

Doctors appointments.

Kindergarten open houses.

Pre-School.

Play School.

REAL School.

Baseball.

Tee-Ball.

New Doctor screenings.

End of School Year Concerts.

I have to be somewhere or have something scheduled

EVERYDAY.

of. this .month.

 but....

6!!!

(and today is only the 1st)

 I cant wait!!

I love this

 being at home with the kiddos!!!

And even though there are those days

I MISS grown-ups,

being home is AMAZING!!!

I think---

WAIT!

I know that out of ALL the jobs I have ever held this is the HARDEST!

Yet it is the most rewarding!!!

I LOVE that I am able to stay home.

Even though NOT everyday is butterflies and sparkles!

I know that this is where I am suppose to be.

I love hearing my kids laugh and sing with me in the car.

We even dance!!



15 YEARS!!!!

I can honestly say I can NOT even believe I am posted this!!!

15 years ago I met Paul.

Some would say on this day 15 years ago I met...

My soulmate!

My best friend!

The love of my Life!

The father of my children!

The man I was going to marry!!

BLAH! BLAH BLAH!!!!

Well, I am just going to post

I MET PAUL!

Yes he is the Father of my Children!

Yes he was the man I married!

YeAh I guess I love him!! -LOL

But for me to be extermely honest.

Which let's face it that is why I blog!

To vent out my true feeling!

I can say!!!

15 years is a LONG @$$ time!!

and here is to 15 more!!



This maybe a VERY touchy subject for some,

Do you Vaccinate your children??

YES!!!

All three of my children are Vaccinated.

YES!!!

I have one son on that is apparently 1 in 88.

Amoung other issues

YES!!

I have a son with Epilepsy.

YES!!

I have a daughter with ADD/ADHD.

YES!!

When I was working in a Dr's office I did vaccinations DAILY!

YES!

I have MANY MANY friends that DO NOT vaccinate.

(And yes we are still friends)

There is MORE and MORE counterversies (sp) especially with April being Autism Awareness Month and the new CDC numbers coming out with the increase in Autism Diagnosises.

1 in 88

1 in 54 boys!

I know in my heart of hearts that my son was born with AUTISM.

I know that it could be worse.

I know that Epilepsy runs like WILD-FIRE on my side of the Family,

I know that ADD/ADHD is in The Spatig-Blood.-LOL

But. yet I still have had my children vaccinated.

Some I am fearfull of.

MMR

 That is the shots Tayson received 6 days before his first seizure.

But through MRI's and CT Scans I know now that is NOT what caussed his seizure.

Tanner has been on the end of Developmental Delay since the day I had him..

I knew it from that DAY!!

But, none of the Doctors I took him to would test him.

I would LOVE to send them a copy of the

213 pages!!!

I have of Doctors and Specialist and Evals

 that I know have in his chart.

I am not even really sure if that is all of them,

And yet again we are off for MORE eval and testing!

Each Doctor we see tells me there is too much going on.

I had one Doctor tell me that it was out of her scope.

For that I was THANKFUL,

that she didnt continue to "play" with his

Medication and therapies

that we not necessary.

I have rambled on and on!

But I am still curious...

Do you vaccinate your children??

Have you noticed any "developmental delays" that were not there before???

Special Olympics Season is ON!!!

GOLD!

Yes!! my son won a GOLD medal in Basketball.

The Red Devils would be PROUD!!!

And the fact that he won GOLD in Star Valley makes it even a sweeter VICTORY!!

Grandpa, Grandma, Dad and I all went with him..

WHAT???

No, Toree and Tayson you say..

Well see those lazy bums wouldnt get out of bed to drive to Star Valley Saturday morning.

So they got LEFT!

Ha, that will teach them..

We had a ball.

ENJOY the pictures



He even carried in the Banner!

Baskelball Players and Clay's Dad!
We all are in tye-dye!

He would have made the Red Devils Proud!!!
Basketball Camp paid off.

Look even Dad came with us!
Grandpa was there too,
but hid from the camera.



LOVE this Kiddo

Tanner, Cody, and Samuel

Clay and Tanner



GOLD!!!!
That's RIGHT people that is how we ROLL!!!!



 Ok, so in this one he wasnt so HAPPY!! It could have "POSSIBLY" be that

I was Screaming and Clapping Like a CRAZY fool!!!

But,

 I was one proud Mama!