I KNOW WHAT I SAID...,, BUT I am NOT sure I meant it.

I know I know in my last post or so I said....BRING ON MARCH, But I have decided I would like to remove that remark..March oh how I love you with the beautiful spring like weather, the slow family life, the NO visit to Doctors offices, the break from college and everyday homework........ OH WAIT that is not what I have been doing and it is ONLY the 13th... Paul's college homework and the kiddos homework is still there, I forgot I lived in Wyoming and March is when they get the MOST snow...GOOD-BYE SPRING, Doctors visits... I do NOT want to even talk about it,. We have tonsils coming out, EEG's to plan for, strep throat like crazy and Now I have a headche..

I KNOW WHAT I SAID ABOUT "BRING ON MARCH, I AM READY FOR YA"
Seriously what was I thinking,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER!!!
THAT MUST HAVE BEEN WHAT I WAS THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I NEED TO FIND SOMETHING EXCITING TO DO.....WYOMING IS BORING.............

MY "-SS-S-S--SS-W-W--WE-E-E-E-E--T--TT-T" ..... TOREE, GESS I ALMOST COULDN'T GET THAT OUT.. SHE IS A CRAZY BOY LOVING, YELLING AT EVERYONE, THINKS SHE IS THE BOSS PRE-TEEN... HEAVEN PLEASE HELP ME-----I MEAN HER!!! SHE SWIMS, SHE RUNS, SHE DANCES, AND SHE FORGETS TO DO HER HOMEWORK.. BUT, WE LOVE HER.

This 2 weeks ago when Tayson had to have his MRI.. They started his IV and he didnt even bat an eye..... OF COURSE SNOW WHITE, was on. So the building could have fell down around him and he would have been ok until he couldnt see the movie.. Before Christmas we took Tayson to a Pediatric Dentist in Odgen and they of course sent us to PCMC and look at that new smile..

This picture is SOOOOOOOO old but I loved it so much I had to throw it in...

I knoe this is a pathetic picture, look at how sad those eyes are... This was the prep for our 24 hour EEG..... Guess where we wer at?????? ANYONE?????

PRIMARY CHILDRENS....... IF YOU ARE KEEPING TRACK THAT IS 4 VISIT SO FAR. AND I HAVENT INCLUDED TANNER'S FIRST 2 VISITS, TAYSON'S EEG AND I KNOW I WAS DOWN THER FOR SOMETHING ELSE????? IT WILL COME TO ME SOON!!!!
NOW MIND YOU PAUL HAD NEVER--EVER BEEN TO A 'TANNER" EEG, SO ALL THE STORIES HE THOUGHT I TOLD HIM ABOUT TANNER'S REACTION.. WAS A PUSSY-CAT VERSION COMPARED TO THIS PREP...5 IT TOOK 5 OF US TO HOLD HIM WITH ME STRATTLING HOM ON THE BED.. THOSE POOR TECH EARNED THERE MONEY THAT DAY.

OUR NEXT ADVENTURE IS TO TAKE PLACE ON MARCH 18TH. TANNER AND I WILL HEAD DOWN FOR A 3-5 DAY EEG... HOPEFULLY THEY WILL FIND OUT WHAT THEY NEED IN 3 DAYS, BUT WITH THAT KID ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE..I BELIEVE HE WILL HAVE TO STAY IN THE NICU, BUT I'M NOT CERTAIN. AS INFORMATION COMES AVAILABLE TO ME I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW..

ANYHOW, JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW 2011 HAS BEEN EXCITING SO FAR.. OH YEAH I FORGOT TO MENTION.. PAUL HAD SURGERY AND TAYSON GOT STITCHES IN THE SAME DAY AND I BROKE MY FOOT. (I DON'T REMEMBER IF I BLOGGED THAT) BUT , I JUST WANTED TO ADD SOMETHING ABOUT ME IN THIS STORY..

BRING ON MARCH.... I'M READY FOR YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh how I LOVE PCMC!!!!

Now I have often heard people say how they LOVE Primary Childrens Hospital.. Now I know why. I have been there every week, once or twice a week since before Christmas for different test and what NOts with the boys.. And Yes PCMC is AMAZING!!! When I went in on Friday for Tayson's MRI the security gaurd said to me "Well hello Mrs. Spatig, we were wondering when you were coming in again.." Honestly, with the 1.000 of thousands of people that travel those hallways he remembered me.. I cant imagine how some people can NOT think the world of the staff there.. Even Ray the LOYAL and CRAZY MRI tech that is Man enough to sport a BYU nametag necklace there.. Or Nikki the AMAZING EEG tech that didnt even batt an eye at Tanner trying to eat her arm. The Nurses and Doctors are in a breed of their own..
When Tayson got his MRI on Friday Dr. Neilson his neurologist was on the phone with me within 2 hours of his test with the results.. 2 hours!!! I have worked in the healthcare field for MANY MANY Years and have never seen such care and understanding.. To them I say thank you!!! Thank you coe letting me feel like I AM THE ONLY PARENT IN THE HOSPITAL.. Even if it is just for those few moments...

THANK YOU EVANSTON RED DEVILS... These kids are AWESOME

During the Evanston High School Varsity Games they always have a 50/50 cash drawing and the Castle Rock shoot-out!! This is Tanner when his name was called for the Shoot-out.. And the next game we went to he won the 50/50 which was 65.00 (Lucky kid)



Now to meet the people that are
"ROCK-STARS"
If you are visiting this blog for the first-time and live in Evanston, Wyoming. The next time you see one of our WONDERFUL High School students running around town. Just smile at them, because that is the best way I can think of to thank them all. This kids have all taken my Tanner under their wing.. He is the "cool" kid that everyone wants to hang with. This kids go above and beyond anything any High School student should. They love my kid and they dont care what other people say.. So to any of you that are their parents, their coaches, or their teachers. These are GREAT kids that need to know that one mom out there watching them is VERY proud of the way you have raised your kids, coached them and taught them!!!
Thank you Evanston Red Devils!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


One of Tanner's Favorite people..... Thank Tyler #34

I was unable to download all the pictures of our basketball games...We had over 1,000...YES\1,000.. So if you want pictures from any home games let me know!!

Do You EVER feel GUILTY????

At work today a co-worker asked me if I felt "GUILTY" when I found out that Tanner had special needs...Without a second of thought I said NO!!! I knew from the minute I saw him that there was something very "special" about him. I told her that I was more upset with the Doctors that would never listen to my concerns about him and that so many of them told me that... he was just a boy and that I should not compare him to his sister, because boys development is noticably slower than girls". I was upset that because of the Doctors SLOWWWWW response to his needs that I lost those precious years of much needed therapies... BUT NEVER DID I FEEL GUILT.

Sure, there were those days when I cried ohhhhh how i cried.. When the specialist told me that he would never do this or he could not do that...I CRIED!!! When we have to hold him down for them to put the wires on his head for EEG's, when they have to draw blood from his little-chubby arm, when they have to move him to the front of the class so he can hear....I cry, not for me but for him because he knows there is something different about him. When he sees other kids that are his age and they are doing things he cant do yet. Like riding a bike, tying their own shoes, zipping up their own coats, or the best is doing up their own pants. (THANK heavens that elastic pants are still cool).

But, then I feel PRIDE.. It's the kinda pride that you just can't explain. It's when you see your kids go up to the child in the wheelchair or with a walker and they help them or run over to say hi to them while all the other kids run past them. That is something I always wanted to teach my kids, But with Tanner it just came natural.. His compassion for others is something MOST adults would be jealous of..

So to sum up her question.... NO,I never ever felt GUILT!!!!!!! I feel honored that Heavenly Father knew I was strong enough to have such a "SPECIAL" spirit in my home and in my life...

One Step at a Time!!!

Tonight for the first time ever I sat at my parents house as the gentleman from the University of Wkyoming was asking us questions to finish up Tanner's DD waiver process. This IS finally the last step..
We were all sitting there Mom, Dad, Me Paul and the kiddos. As he asked the first round of questions it wasnt too bad we were able to get to at least question 10 before the 1 and 0 were our answers.. This I think was much easier for my Mom and I then the men there. To have to actually admit his functioning skills is probually the HARDEST thing for me, because I have always hidden what I do for him from so many people.
Then we got to the final section which is my least favorite part, That would be the Personal Cares section. This is the part where you have to actually speak up and let your childs NEEDS known.. The fact that my 10 year old is not able to wash his hands and face alone without verbal cues, The fact that my 10 year old is NOT able to dress and care for himself alone opened my eyes yet again.
Over the last 2 years since Tanner's diagnoises and all the therapies we have put him in he is NOW able to make friends at school. As a matter of fact on Friday night he took me on a date. Knowing a couple of girls from the office with boys the same age I invited them to join us. It was AMAZING.. The boys laughed and visited.. I laughed and visited and at the end of the 3 hour dinner I thought to myself, "DAMN, look how far we have come Tann".. Yes we have a long ways to go and probually many more melt-downs,.. But we had one successful dinner and his FIRST ever boys NIGHT out,,

I really miss my Idaho Friends

The holidays are over and it makes you greatful for what you have. This year being home for the entire Holiday Season was WONDERFUL!!!
I do however greatly miss my dear friends in Idaho.. And that has been hard, I am not overly friendly and they all broke right through the wall. So to all my Idaho friends.. I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!
I hope to see you all again soon and at the rate you are all announcing NEW babies it should be for all your showers.. PLAN THEM ALL THE SAME WEEKEND, THEN I WONT MISS ONE.

It makes you thankful for great friends, you know the ones that are your family and take you under their wings when you are alone or away from your family.. that is what you all meant to me.. I hope and pray you all have a wonderful 2011.